throwing away things is so fucking therapeutic.
i just cleared three bags full of unwanted clothes.

want to do something fun on a wednesday night?

why dont you go get ready to go out.. bath.. change and all..
and then you will receive a phonecall telling you that tonight's plan is changed. YAYYY.
its prolly the most fun and happening thing to do tonight.
hurry hurry. go plan with you friends and wait for the phone call.
its super exciting. i swear. then you can change again.. and then spend the whole night being pissed. its the most fun thing to do. can we do this every night please. i cant wait

i met my sis for lunch today at raffles place.
the place is chaotic during lunch time.. there was some fhm roadshow.. and you can literally see the men slowing down checking out the babes in micro mini skirts and super short fhm tank tops. haha.

i saw the nicest jacket at blum. $165. =(
its super super nice.. its like one in a million kind. green with flowers. sounds ugly but its damn nice.. ahhh! and im going to be dreaming of it till i see something else that i really want.

i came home on a wednesday afternoon.. to find out that my house is invaded by mojojojojojojojo. save me!!! 

fly me to the moon - class95

brings back mambo memories.
love songs. vulgar songs. bimbo songs.

wah time sure flies.

i am just having the worst cramps ever.

and if you see me online.. please remind me to do my work.
all my school work that ive not been handing in.

please.

daphne, wakey wakey. time to wake up and start doing your work.
stop being so selective.
only about 3 more weeks of school before sch hols.
dont be so lazy.
you want to repeat is it??
stop being such a lazy bum. really.
stop wanting to sleep all the time.
yes i know you havent been out in ages.
and yet you stay at home and do what? nothing. sleep eat watch tv.
no wonder you are getting so freaking fat.
so what if you havent been out the past few saturdays?
sounds nice only. in the end at home also slacking.
go out better even.
and daphne, time to start looking for a job.
with the things you want and the way you spend your money..
you need a job soon. and please try to stop shopping.
even if its a sale item.
even if its a staff discount item.
stop wanting..

why are the things in the box.... left in singapore?

hello purple hair again!!

no actually it looks black.
i feel so................ blackish for once. in....... 10 months. haha.

i cant wait for december to come.
but then again, something tells me that my happiness is not gonna last.

3 more months to december.
please, let what he say be true.

last night, i dreamt that i was at someone's house party.. and then the next morning.. there was this huge thunderstorm.. and then when lightning striked, i saw an image.. sth that implies "im going to punish everyone today." sth of that image.. i think its a huge person. either jesus or the devil.. i forgot. and then the first thing i did was call my mom and asked everyone at home to take care.

whats this about dreams whereby my family members are harmed?

last night i dreamt of aliens and monsters wanting to kill my family.

lesson learnt.

actually maybe not totally.
i never learn remember?

dear mr danny lim,

happy birthday.

i miss you. alot.
hope youre having fun in the big apple.

love you kor.

tragic.

my mom threw away my bolster.
my one and only favourite bolster.

=(((((((((((((

"you need your bolster? you got tigger already what."

http://fuggingitup.blogspot.com/

check check.

this is the first time in this term that im putting some effort in my work. i feel so hardworking and motivated now i cant wait to study on sunday!

ive realised that i love doing my visual studies projects even though i always do them 1 night before its due or sth.

=/

something tells me its gonna be a horrid week ahead.
thank goodness its only 3 days of school

"and i say heyy ayee ayye ayeee hey ayee aye.. i say hey.. whats going on?"

some old song thats on class95 now. anyone knows the title?
this song reminds me of happier times.
this was the song that the band at centrestage (hardrock bali) played for like almost all 3 nights that we were there. my entire family will be there.. and lil tasha singing along to this.

and it was only half a year ago.

off to cook dinner. okay.. just instant noodles.

i took bus 14 today to get to greatworld.

river valley, kimseng, greatworld, spices.
super late night supper. walking from rivervalley back to kimseng.
after clubbing suppers. after clubbing pool games. after movies chitchats. after work hang out.
walking from kimseng to rivervalley in crooked lines. super high.

wow, its been about a year. those clubbing days. super chain smoking when high days. chain smoking everywhere. marlboro menthol lights. drinking sessions. drunk moments. (yes yes, dont remind me please.)

lets all meet up again! after i turn 18 okay! okok. kidding. soon lah okay.
this is so bad. i never had the urge to drink.

im trying to think of all the good that happened yesterday.

friday was such a long day. i woke up at 7am, got home at 2am the following morning.
early in the morning while i was on the bus, i saw miss ohsocute misslowevelynhazel know about her. guess who doode. coffee? =p such a great start to a friday morning.

God is unfair.
God wont bless you if you're angry with him.
God will leave you alone if you are in trouble becos thats the consequences of your sin.

YAY!!
and hello? why am i a christian?

fuck you all.
i dont spend my entire life making you all happy.
i am so fucking self centered that i will only do things that will make me happy.
dont give me the whole PR shite talk cos i suck a PR.
and i dont intend to excel in it.

thank you for putting those doubts in my mind.
thank you so much. you all are so self centered. just like me.
YAY maybe thats why we're related. YAYY YAYYY YAYYYY.
all you all think about is the hurt and anger you go through.
everyone has their side. then what? as the youngest what am i to do?
but please keep in mind that you are not the king.
you are not right all the time.
you think you are right. high and mighty. and what else.

wah how exciting.. im super enjoying this conversation.. YAYYY!

can you feel me rolling my eyes.

oh yay today is such a happy merry day!

for the next three fridays... i have NO SCHOOL cos my new lecturer has some army thing. (and he has a horrid name that makes me dislike him. ERZAN. mambo, go figure) how fun! becos i already have no school on thursdays.. and for the next three weeks, fridays too! how free! only 3 days for school! yAYYyy.

i finally watched the bimbo angel show. which is so similar to the spice movie.

seems like all the good old days people are in holland today. was in breko's with the goodolddays people. seems like it was just weeks ago that we used to hang out so often.

im all smiles! =) finally.

take a look around. how many people around you are happy in a marriage?

ive lost all faith and hope for marriages. becos its nothing but trouble.

and the only 'perfect' couple i know.. is lesbian. great.
alternative lifestyle they all it.

i miss having red and purple hair.

should i go and color my hair again?

it amazes me how much hatred there can be in a family.

how do you actually define a family?

how do you hate your family?
or rather, dislike.
or rather, cut off all traditions and customs.

you know what?
all bullshit i would say. i have so much to say. but i just do the usual thing. keep quiet. agree.

the past few days were living hell.
ive always lived in this wonderland where everything is all merry.
and then suddenly i felt like my life was part of a fucking mediacorp drama or something.

i am so spoilt and pampered sometimes i wonder when will i ever grow up.
all these thoughts, the outcome of my sis talking to me.

this term, i missed school thrice.
im losing my focus.
terrible.

fuck all of you.
stop questioning me.

its fucking irritating i just want to leave this place. its living hell.

fuck you all.
stop playing fucking mind games with me.

i hate the fucking responsibilities of being 17.. turning 18.
i hate the way you all dwell in the past.
i hate all of you for loving me so much and all trying to show your love at this point of time, when all i would like is for you all to attempt to love one another.

dont give me money.
dont leave me with your valuables when you die.
cos im not worth it. at all.
dont tell me how you want your funeral to be like.
cos i dont want to bear the responsibility.

i hate the way both sides talk to me.
i hate the way everyone is expecting me to take sides.
fuck you all. all fucking how old already still so fucking childish.

i want to run.
away from everything.
away from all of you.

fuck you all.
stop playing fucking mind games with me.

i hate the fucking responsibilities of being 17.. turning 18.
i hate the way you all dwell in the past.
i hate all of you for loving me so much and all trying to show your love at this point of time, when all i would like is for you all to attempt to love one another.

dont give me money.
dont leave me with your valuables when you die.
cos im not worth it. at all.
dont tell me how you want your funeral to be like.
cos i dont want to bear the responsibility.

i hate the way both sides talk to me.
i hate the way everyone is expecting me to take sides.
fuck you all. all fucking how old already still so fucking childish.

i want to run.
away from everything.
away from all of you.

i pray that tash and ky will not be emotionally affected by this whole shite.

canon ixus IIs or canon ixus i? both eye candies.

and......... i got my line back. haha. the 9435 one.
so.... start calling me again. ha

i know all of you love me.
but i would rather you all hate me, and love each other instead.

please, for me?

i dont want to grow up.
i dont want to grow up.
i dont want to grow up.

i want to pretend that im totally clueless.
but fucking hell you have no idea what all of you put me through emotionally these 17 years.

dont tell me im intelligent because im not.
dont ask me to be the middleman in this because i dont want to let you down.
dont tell me anything. please. i want nothing from all of you.

cant we all live in lala land and everything will be ohsomerry.

camera hunting was okay. more or less decided which one i wanna get. wait.. but then again, i dont really know. ack. i hate making choices. on the way home, i saw susan on the bus. super funny talking to her and all. the whole bus was probably damn irritated with us.

anyway. on another note, wednesday nights never felt so fucked up.
i came home and in a super drama way, i guess you could say things were how fucking fucked up. screwed. big time. and nothing's gonna change that. nothing can change that.

jie, i love you even though you are such a bitch all the time.

i love you not because you doted on me when i was young.

i love you not because you go shopping and sometimes think of me.

i love you not because you give me money sometimes.

i love you because you scold me.

i love you because you tell me that im fat.

i love you because you can be such a bitch at times and yet i know its just for my own good.

i am so amazed by online shopping.
ebay.com
super amazing. the maharishi(s) there are how fucking drop dead gorgeous. and cheap. as well as the marc jacobs. ohmygoodness. but then again reality check daphne, you're living in singapore. can you imagine the shipping charges?

i cant wait for the spice album!
i cant wait for jimmy to lend me, spice world-the movie.

was doing some camera hunting recently. there's this really great deal on some canon one. but im canon-phobic because my last two cameras were both from canon. the first one just went crazy and didnt work suddenly. the second one, i bought on 29th december 2002, lost on 29th december 2003. (the reason why i remember the dates is because i bought it on my dad's bday and lost it on his bday!!) anyway so i guess canon and daphne dont really go together. but then what about a third try?

i have the nicest mommy in the entire world!
she packed my room for me. now its how neat lah! yayy!

check check the new paper today.

mr andrew poh!!!!! hahah.

go watch quill, shown in lido only. its about this dog called quill (duh) who is a dog who is trained to guide the blind.

i want a dog too, and i want to name him quill-y.

oh yayy i just got home! knees aching, and super awake. (3 cups of coffee in the last 12 hours)

a cinderella story is so nice. its such a ohsosweet movie. =) it makes you go like.. ahhh bitch! and then you go.. HA! awwwsooosweeeet.

oh yah yesterday (friday) was such a see-acquaintances-and-forget-their-name day.

on the bus ride home just now, i needed to pee so badly i actually alighted at the first bus stop after the expressway, just so that i can rush to the coffeeshop nearby to use the toilet.

denise, if you still read my blog, happy 18th birthday. =)

since im phone-less, ive been unable to msg bev and min for ages. so just awhile ago, i decided to call them. and they didnt pick up, as usual. and after awhile.. my house phone rang..

"EXCUSE ME DAPHNE LIM WHAT KIND OF FRIEND ARE YOU? YOU KNOW WE HAVE BEEN TRYING SO HARD TO GET YOU BUT WE LOST YOUR HOUSE NUMBER. IS THIS WHAT FRIENDS DO TO EACH OTHER?????"

i miss you two lah. hahah.

tonight, i want nathaniel ho, christopher lee and daphne khoo to get in!

i was looking through my photo albums and all.
its super depressing i tell you. how could i wear such awful clothes? (prolly still am.) and..... how the hell did i put on so much weight.

i spell fatness.
ackkkk.

cancel singnet broadband. get scv maxonline?

pros
tansparent xbox
i can play mario and puzzlebobble in the middle of the night
scv is apparently faster

cons
my bro and dad will probably hog the xbox
the white cable is so unsightly
scv point and my com are at diff ends of the room
transparent, will turn yellow after awhile

my brother in law just collected his from funan today. he went to continue his 2 year contract. my sister said.. "see, why did you have to tell elvin kor kor about the giveaway of xbox." she made my bro in law buy 3 xbox games for tash. so that tash will be the one hogging it, not my bro in law. ha. all the kiddy games. i hope they got mario and puzzle bobble.

been in a horrid mood since i woke up. feel so evil cos im snapping at everyone around me.

im sleeeepy. i cant wait for the maid to come home today. i wonder if she got me things from her country.

senseless entry. in the school library now.
just now so em-breast-ing. (mambo way)
i didnt know how to switch on the computer.... its a mac. so i went like..
errr, how do i switch this on?? its hidden so.... ha.

anyway i cant wait for school to end. or rather art history lesson.

today i felt very tired. not physically but.. the whole fucking emo thing again. fuck.

last night i made an overseas call. fucked up.

for the past two days, i left the house at 745, reach home around midnight. great. the only conversation time left with my mom is in the morning. been rushing from school to the hospital, from the hospital to dover for hum.

please pray for tasha.